I am from Christian family but I was not saved until my daughter passed
away, 23 years ago, she was. one and half yrs old daughter and had been was
very sick. The doctors tried their best to save her life but at last they
released us from the hospital. That evening I was so helpless like agony
about my child, I looked at the child and sometimes I cried. I said to
myself nobody could give me comfort or peace.
I didn't get any comfort anywhere; I was searching for peace and true God. .I stood all alone on the floor and I challenged God (I didn't plead to God). I said " Let me know who is real God, where is He, why doesn't He come to me, and He said He gives peace to people, Where is His peace, show me now. If He is a real God He should come to heal her.
After sometimes, I saw that my daughter was looking towards above and said
"Pa', and then she left the world. I was just watching her face and touched
her body, all of a sudden the Lord speaks to me" Peace I leave with you, My
peace I give to you , Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be
(I never read the Bible in my life; I know nothing about any verses) All of
a sudden I was blessed with such a peace in my heart. I touched my baby,
hand I held her so very close. then I realized that our human life belongs
to God, and He is the owner, He takes away whenever He wish to. I keep
holding my baby child and keep praising God for her passing away, on top of
that I was rejoicing in the Lord. Hallelujah. Only Jesus Christ can deliver
us from all suffering/burdens. There is no other god or goddesses who could
reply my questions on that evening except Jesus Christ, my Savior. God loves
me so much that He took away my child and blessed and replaced me with Holy
Spirit; He exchanged my love to His love.
I realized that its is comfort to seek the purpose of God's good from any
and all of my sufferings. I do not seek to suffer, but seek God my Heavenly
Father's response to any suffering or trials. God is God in victory or in
troubles. Jesus is my life in this life or in pain or death.
You know, it was also the love and many prayers of my Godly parents, and the
years of The Seed of The Word of God that came to a harvest. Thank God their
faithfulness paid off also in the Scriptures speaking through The Holy
Spirit that very sad day in my sweet precious daughters death. I will for
sure see her and my saint of a Dad again in my Heavenly Home!
Praise be to God